I’ve craved normality for days now and today was that day I got back into my routine. I went to HS drop in session and felt ok but the instant someone said about not having my support worker and her not coming to the meeting I have next week it fell apart. I kept being asked if I was ok with it and felt like saying no but it wouldn’t get me anywhere.
I feel abandoned and let down lost in my own thoughts with no-one there to help me through. Anxiety is raising every day with more and more appointments and more involvement then ever before. I feel totally alone.
I had an appointment letter come through today for my youngest to see the cardiologist but I had to rearrange it because it was at 2:30pm 20 miles away from my home town. I had no-one to get my eldest from school even though it’s 2 months away. If my husband took time out of work he wouldn’t get paid so I’ve re arranged it only problem is it’s 2 days before his 2nd birthday.
I have no-one to talk to tonight. I’ve had a crap day, I’m emotional and tearful. My husband doesn’t get it, he’s not getting why I’m stressed and upset and he wouldn’t even if I explained it to him. I just feel so lonely.