Missing out

With all the various appointments and courses and things I’ve had and got coming I feel like I’m missing out on my social life and precious playtime with my youngest boy. He’s grouchy and I’m just as bad. Neither of us are sleeping particulaly well so that’s not great either. 

The counselling has been a long time coming and I’m grateful I can get the help but it’s taking its toll on me emotionally. I have another 5 sessions and even then there’s no saying it will go away. I may need more. Then there’s the stress of waiting to find out if we get funding for nursery or if I have to pay for it. If I have to pay I will have to cancel the autism course and counselling there’s no way I can afford to pay £40 a week in childcare even if it is only temporary. 

I’m feeling isolated with everything going on and then to add to it all its almost a year since my littlest one had his heart repaired. I have the memories of a year ago to contend with aswell. It’s not easy. 


Author: always over thinking things

I'm 33 years old,married and I'm a full time mum to 2 boys. My eldest is 6 and the youngest is a year old. My eldest boy is on the autistic spectrum and my youngest is 2 and has a congenital heart defect called tetralogy of fallot. My blog is about my children, about me and my way of dealing with the life I've been given. It's a way of expressing my emotions and feelings through words. This is done anonymously as I want to keep myself away from people who don't know what's happening in my life.

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