Up until a few days ago I’ve pretty much kept this blog private barely anyone knew about it. I was afraid of what people would think if they knew what was going on inside my mind. I was worried about people reading my story about what we’ve been through. I was and still am afraid of people judging me or thinking badly of me. I’ve shared the link to this blog with a few friends and a professional support. A friend I met at a family group and a friend I met through my mum have had access to this blog.
It was pretty scary and a big thing for me to let people who know me see this. And the comments have been so positive it was a relief.
It’s funny how life has a way of bringing people into your life for whatever purpose. I’m so glad now more then ever I have had the level of support I’ve had and it came when it did. From that support I’ve made 2 new friendships. One closer then the other. We meet up on a regular basis, we text all the time and it’s so nice she’s so genuine. If I didn’t have the support I have I wouldn’t have met this person. I wouldn’t have this friendship I have.
I’ve had a rough few weeks and as much as I want it all behind me I’ve got more things to get through. It’s not just ordinary counselling because I have depression. it’s counselling for something else and it’s going to be hard. I’m trying to be positive but at the moment I kinda feel lost and alone. I really don’t want to be lost or alone I need to find my way back. I need to not let life drag me down I need that kick yo the arse sometimes. I’m trying my best it’s all I can offer right now.