Too many what if’s

I’m actually suppose to be trying to go to sleep but my brain is once again over thinking everything. I’m totally knackered and I need to sleep I just can’t find the off switch there are too many “what if’s” going on in my head. 

What if the valve is leaking?

What if the heart is enlarged again?

What if the oxygen sats are down? 

What if the patch is leaking?

What if his heart rhythm is too fast or too slow?

What if the meds were stopped too soon? 

Or none of those things could happen and  they are very unlikely and I should be thinking what if everything is fine? 

I need to find the off switch and get some sleep 


Author: always over thinking things

I'm 33 years old,married and I'm a full time mum to 2 boys. My eldest is 6 and the youngest is a year old. My eldest boy is on the autistic spectrum and my youngest is 2 and has a congenital heart defect called tetralogy of fallot. My blog is about my children, about me and my way of dealing with the life I've been given. It's a way of expressing my emotions and feelings through words. This is done anonymously as I want to keep myself away from people who don't know what's happening in my life.

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